preciouszipster

I have an EPIC return coming.

You'll see.

Should I move to another account?
I've been thinking.. I want to take photography seriously.. and I still have a goal set in my life to get one of those Rebel XTi cameras... And then learning how to use it to take great pictures and actually going out there to do good photography and not camwhoring shots or just random pictures of people I know.

Also.. I want to do the clothing thing seriously. I got interested in that all of sudden. I'd like to get better at it, though. I've only just begun... I can only do so much and I have no one to teach me.

Then.. there's the sculpting. I really want to do that and have my stuff sold. I believe I might be able to do it, but I'm still not sure. I still don't have anyone who's interested in my stuff other than my friends, and I don't want to sell my stuff just to my friends, because I'd feel like I was taking their money.

The only thing I'm really good at.. that I don't do often enough - is photo manipulation. I know I'm good at that and I've had years of practice. I always get compliments and "I wish I could do that" comments on my stuff. I could even get a job in that area if people weren't hung up on me having a college in my background. I think I should go try for that anyway.
I wanna be the girl in the song that has a job "retouching photos for a magazine" (Seriously, I wasn't joking when I said I now LOVE fountains of wayne more than any other band.. but I had a dream about green day the other night and it kind of made me feel retarded)
Note: Rich, if you read this, please no silly comments. Just come talk to me instead, you goon.

So.. Should I move to another account and get rid of this one? I've been thinking about changing the name to my livejournal for awhile now. I've had this username on many websites for years.. but now my life has changed drastically. I've come to terms with what I can and can't do.
If things go as planned in the near future.. I might be able to get a job I like and have interest in. I might be able to do a lot more online than I have been. I may go to school for something. Or not. Never know.
The problem is, I've got too many things under my belt. I want to do this and that.. and every now and then I think about the dreams I used to have.. and what happened to them - but I stop myself from thinking about it too much for fear I'll do myself in. (Not literally, as far as you're concerned)
I still want to be "known" for something.. but that's besides the point.

My life is so different than it used to be.. but I still act as the same old girl. It's really awkward how that all happened or how I managed to do any of it.
Shit. I used to party all the time. Now I don't, I just say I do. But I don't mean it.

Shit.. I used to hang out in the shoutbox. Now there's a joke n' a half.

I wonder if I should start from scratch here.. maybe start paying for my DA stuff? Eventually.. maybe do prints. I've always wanted a DD but right now, I don't deserve one. I kind of hope that one day, I will. Not right now, though, I'm not ready yet.. so don't get any big ideas!

What I'm trying to say... should I move away from what all of this used to be, and only do what I'm seriously thinking about? Start doing photos and using proper light.. start making figurines and selling them in an online shop... Maybe learn to do some serious clothing mods?

Don't ask about the writing.. I still do it, from time to time. Even though it may not seem like it.. and it wouldn't, because I've always been secretive about it. Ever since Richard Jeni died.. The writer in me kind of gave up hope.

My stomach tried to kill me last night or something. So.. I don't know what I'm gonna be doing here for awhile. I've not posted any art in a long time.. but I've got things I've done and other stuff I'm working on. So.. uh, yay It might still be awhile.. I still feel like shit.
I'm doing stupid survey cause what else is there to do?

1. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 4 months?
Yeah, it's been a year by now.

2. What color are your eyes?
BLACK.

3. Who was the first person that you texted this morning?
I don't text anyone.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?
Of course I do, my Richie and Danielle and Rothie.

5. What is one thing you question a lot?
Um. I guess if I'm ever giong to be famous or not.

6. Do you lead people on?
No.

7. Are you married?
Not yet!

8. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yes, I have.

9. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
My mom beause I'm not married yet, lol.

10. Do you miss someone?
Not at the moment?

11. Did any of your friends go out with any of your exes?
wtf? no. Not that I'm aware of.

12. Are looks important?
NOPE.

13. What are you wearing right now?
Some brown baby top thing I got for christmas. And undies. Cause this is how I dress when I'm sick.

14. Are you mad at someone right now?
Nah.

15. Are you taking anyone for granted?
I wouldn't know, I guess?

16. Where do you keep your money?
This is a bad question.

17. When was your last kiss in the rain?
I don't think there ever was one.. but we kiss in the shower lots.

18. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
Sleep with Richie.

19. How did you wake up this morning?
I just woke up.. and it's like five in the afternoon. Fail.

20. Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
Sunset.

21. What was the highlight of your day?
Not having whatever stomach thing that was ailing me this morning. Jesus.

22. Would you die for anyone?
Ummm. Yeah?

23. What's the last bone you broke?
I've never broken one! I win.

24. How many different letters are in your last name?
7

25. Do you love anyone besides family & friends?
LOL WTF?

26. What book did you read last?
Happy Endings by Jimmy Norton.

27. How was your day?
It sucked. My stomach is killing me and my stupid runny/clogged up nose came back and this is so annoying.

28. Who was your last missed call?
Someone was calling this morning. I don't know who because I didn't pick it up. I think Rich did, though.. but they must have hung up on him.

29. Are you scared of spiders?
A little bit. Depends on how big and fat they are. The fat ones scare me.

30. What do you think of Fergie?
She's ugly.

31. Do you believe in love?
Yes.

32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
....I don't want to have them, I don't think.

33. When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
I never throw up when I'm drunk.

34. Do you curse a lot?
Hah yeah.

35. What do you know about the future?
Nothing. I'm not a psychic.

36. Do you hate your last boyfriend/girlfriend?
No. I saw him recently, there was nothing wrong with him. We just don't have anything in common.

37. Do you only drink bottled water?
No.

38. Are you happier single or with a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I like having a boyfriend a lot more.

39. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Not  everyone.

40. Would you believe your ex if she/he said they love you?
I do now. Wtf?

41. Most hated food?
Beans. ew.

42. What are you doing tomorrow?
Fuck I don't know. Trying not to be sick??

43. Do you wish someone would call you?
Fuck no!! I hate talking to people on the phone.

44. Who?
--

45. What's something you wish you could understand better?
Math.

46. Do you want someone you can't have?
??

47. If someone doesn't like you, it's usually because...?
I don't talk, lol.

48. Would you say you are date smart?
I didn't date.. And I don't now of course I'm taken.

49. What are you excited about?
These new candy treats my dad just gave me.

50. Kissed someone in the last 48 hrs?
My boyfriend. So yeah.

I fucking hate Deviant Art sometimes.

Seriously. I'm trying to decent work now.. I was thinking about cleaning out my gallery even.. and what do I get? My shit getting moved around. Thanks.

hey dannie, look who's back on DA...

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